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“Walaupun di suatu saat, kamu merasa diri kamu tidak berharga, tetapi bagi orang yg sayang ama kamu dan bagi Tuhan, kamu tetap berharga di mata mereka. Dan jika bagi org tersebut kamu tidak berharga maka org tersebut tidak sayang padamu dan kamu lebih baik mencari org lain yang menyayangi kamu karena dia akan menghargai kamu”
I was once given this beautiful phrase by a dear friend of mine. I was down at that time and I need all support I can get from my friends. I feel unworthy and so helpless.

When we are feeling sad and cannot keep our head straight, we tend to blame things on someone else or on God. We try to figure things and try to look for an answer. We keep thinking what I did that was so wrong that God punished me so hard. I remember a story told by one of the preacher in my church. He told us that we tend to be unsatisfied if the things that we worked on so hard, at the end was going wrong, unfinished or the final touch is by someone else.

If we do the comparison, it’s probably the same with a failed relationship. We worked so hard to make it go smooth and at the end it was ended. By someone else or by a misunderstanding or by lost of chemistry or the situation itself just not right. A lot can go wrong.

I used to think that God is unfair to me. Why there have to be a beginning when at the end there will be a goodbye. Doesn’t God already know what will be happening before it’s finally happened? If He already knows, why He gives his child such sorrow. Why He didn’t alter my faith and make it go a different way.

Well, when the last one happened, it finally stroked me. That is how God shows me how much he loves me. He gives me chances to choose what I want. And when I chose the wrong way, He gave an obstacle for me so I can turn my head around. And afterwards, He will give me another chance, a better one. He didn’t abandon me. When I need Him, He will only be a prayer far. He’s not autocratic. He give me chances to feel my own decision, whether it is happy or sad. He loves me so much that He just can’t let me going down with the choices that I made. In His eyes I am worthy enough for Him to sacrifice Himself at the cross.

And from the bottom of my heart, all I can say is… Thank You for Your Love God. You are my savior.

“Don’t cry coz it’s ended. Smile coz it’s happened. Because that means God still love u”

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