My Own Happiness
A man was walking down the street with his pregnant wife.
They are laughing and held hands. In his arm, he also carried
a big shopping bag with baby stores name in front
I saw them and I stopped. Tears ran down my cheek and my heart
feels like stab my a edged knife. Memory flash back uncontrollable
He is so happy now.
Oh why......
The world is so unfair. How come a person with unfaithful past
can be happy. And I’m here alone. Still searching for my own happiness.
Is it wrong for me to feel unjust? Is it wrong for me to seek for
fairness? A man that hurt me so much 4 years ago is walking down the
street with the woman that he cheated me with.
What should I do? Pray for his happiness and hope that it will
last ever after? I’m not a God and I’m not a saint. I’m not an angel.
And perhaps I never will be. Forgiveness. An easy word to say but
a damn hard thing to do.
I thought I have done a remarkable thing though.
I thought I have forgiven him. But yesterday I realized it
was only a disguise. It’s still an open wound and perhaps
it will always be till I found my own happiness.
Rusmi, August 7, 2006
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August 8th, 2006 at 5:13 am
Don’t ever get jealous with another person’s happiness. Try to appreciate what you got now… then you’ll be happy. God has different plans to every human being.
notes: you should edit this post… the right margin is too wide honey….
August 8th, 2006 at 5:41 am
Tenang Yud .. tenang.. haha… ini cuma fiksi lagi… gak real koq.. Loe kyk gak tau g aja… Kalo buat g mah dah the past is the past.. no need to be sentimental afterwards.. hehe…
August 24th, 2006 at 4:16 am
Move on. Life is beautiful, depends on how you see it.
September 4th, 2006 at 10:40 am
Only the individual who has gone through those process precisely, in person, can afford to write such a sharp (and stunning) first hand image.
Forgiveness, an easy word to say …. Tenang…Tenang…
Everyone dies eventually, just hope that by then, ( when we entered the gray zone between life and death), we would be too busy thinking about our loved one, not the otherwise.
September 6th, 2006 at 6:25 pm
Duh gw ampe mau nangis baca cerita diatas….
Hehehehe…
Inget Rus, melupakan itu seperti membiarkan luka sembuh sendiri… salah2 lo malah infeksi…
Obatnya cuman ada dua;
1) Antiseptik yg namanya maaf trus di tutup pake plester ikhlas; atau
2) Di amputasi ajah pake balas dendam, hehehe….
Kalo lo pilih alternatif ke-2 dan lo butuh jasa professional… Hehehe, jangan ragu untuk hubungin gw…
Nanti kita cari sama2..lho!?
September 7th, 2006 at 10:28 pm
Wakakaka… dasar loe ry… pikirannya other income doank… :p